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Monday, August 4th, 2008
12:51 am
Things aren't always what they seem...

  
 


What makes you, YOU?
 Is it the color of hair you choose, the bands you listen too, or simply the people that you love? 
Do you really know you? are you the you that you've always dreamed you'd be?
If so, great I truly envy your certainty. Personally I've always felt that I would never know the real me because I was changing too quickly to figure myself out. I now know that is the falsest statement around. You can always know who you are just by taking a moment or two to ask yourself what it is that really makes you tick, and if you don't like the answer to that question you can now go about changing the parts that you don't like. Just a cautionary though, think about how hard it is to change someone else, not easy but any means, and guess what...it's not any easier to change something about yourself. You've got to really want something in order to make it happen. There is no halfway anymore, so commit yourself to who you want to be and chase that. If something gets in your way, kindly ask it to move and if it doesn't then show it you mean business. Remeber don't be rude or pushy to get what you want because that's cheating. Take the higher road and be honest and kind and eventually it will pay off for you. Karma does remember. 

The first step to becoming what you want is to decide what that is, so before you set off on your magical fantastic journey take the time to sort things out and prepare yourself for the changes that lie ahead. 
Get rid of negative people, they will only tell you that you can't do it and of course they are liars and no one likes a liar, right? Negative people come in all forms and it is up to them to decide when they can make a positive change, so ignore their comments and quips and set an example. Lead the way to change!

Sunday, May 4th, 2008
5:15 pm
Saturday, July 21st, 2007
2:11 pm
Writer's Block: Bump In The Night
What are you afraid of?

losing someone I love.
Tuesday, April 24th, 2007
6:15 pm
Rest in peace Logan.
April 24, 2006
We all miss you.


There's no one in town I know
You gave us some place to go
I never said thank you for that
'thought I might get one more chance
What would you think of me now?
So lucky, so strong, so proud
I never said thank you for that
Now I'll never have a chance
May angels lead you in
Hear you me my friends
On sleepless roads, the sleepless go
May angels lead you in
Saturday, April 21st, 2007
3:44 pm
you stand ground like a warrior
but the way you listen like you've never heard anything
and the worst is you hold my hand
you're like nobody i've ever know
but i aint no city boy

i dont mind how you're knowing me
but the way you're acting how you never stop holding me
and the worst is you use both hands
city girls aren't supposed to though

so if we're in love i suppose
im out of here before i get too close
and if we're in love i suppose
you're the worst city girl i've known

if i'm one and one and two is me and you
then three's a place i swore i'd never get to
and the worst is you changed my mind
i've never been much the nervous kind
but you ain't nervous
it's a fast world where you're from you speed along
make you run so fast you can't focus on
and the worst is, no i change my mind
the best is i still get all your time

so if we're in love i suppose
im out of here before i get too close
and if we're in love i suppose
you're the worst city girl i've known

so shame on me for getting too close
shame on you and you're bedroom window
and your body so close to me
i shudder and i dream of the city
all along the way, you've been nothing but trouble
oh, but somehow here we are

so if we're in love i suppose
im out of here before i get too close
and if we're in love i suppose
you're the worst city girl i've known
3:05 pm
-- there could be nothing better. <3
You got the softest lips and the coldest kiss
The softest lips and the coldest kiss
You may never remember this
But once I was your happiness

You get one ticket to anywhere
You chose the boy with the dark brown hair
But you changed directions like lovers do
Well sometimes he still thinks of you
&& I think you try too hard to move along
Just passed the motions that you need to, to move on
So you move to the coast where it's a little bit colder
With your old jeans and your old striped sweater
That you won't wear 'cause it takes you back there
And he sits with a leg crossed up on your shoulder
Stupid little thing that you messed up on
Stupid little boy that you done wrong
And it makes you weak
Monday, October 2nd, 2006
4:03 pm
"We never talked about it, but I hear the blame was mine. 
I'd call you up to say that I'm sorry, but I wouldn't want to waste your time. 
'Cause I do love you, but I can't take anymore.
 
There's a look I can't describe in your eyes. 
Yes, we could try, like we tried before when you kept on telling me those lies. 
Do you remember?
There seemed no way to make up, 
'cause it seemed your mind was set. 
&& the way you looked - it told me. 
It's a look I know I'll never forget.

You could've come over to my side. 
You could've let me know. 
You could've tried to see the difference between us. 
But it seemed too far for you to go.
 
Do you remember?
Through all of my life - in spite of all the pain - You know, people are funny sometimes 'cause they just can't wait to get hurt again
Do you remember?
There are things we won't recall, feelings we'll never find.
It's taken so long to see it 'cause we never seemed to have the time. 
There was always something more important to do - more important to say. 
But "I love you," wasn't one of those things, 
and now it's much too late. 
Do you remember?"
Sunday, September 10th, 2006
4:43 pm

I've been jumping from the tops of buildings
for the thrill of the fall.

Saturday, July 8th, 2006
2:19 pm
A long night spent with your most obvious weakness
You start shaking at the thought you are everything I want
'Cause you are everything I'm not
And we lay, we lay together just not
Too close, too close - how close is close enough?
We lay, we lay together just not
Too close, too close
I just wanna break you down so badly
Well I trip over everything you say

I just wanna break you down so badly
In the worst way

Songs about being more than friends?
Monday, July 3rd, 2006
5:35 pm
ABOUT YOU
Your full name:: Ashley Dawn
Age::16
Height:: 5'2ish
Natural hair color:: Blonde
Eye color:: Grey
Number of siblings::1
Glasses/contacts?:: both
Piercings::ears
Tattoos::nope

FAVOURITE
Color::green
Video game:: Yoshi!
TV show:: duh...
Book:: Sloppy Firsts
Game on a cell phone:: Pac-Man
Scent:: Vanilla
Animal:: Rhinos, wierd I know.
Comic book:: Archie
Cereal:: Frosted Mini-Wheats
Website:: LJ
Cartoon:: All of them.

DO YOU
Play an instrument?:: Drums
Watch TV more than 60 hours a week?:: never
Have a job?:: Snowboard Instructor/Ticket Counter Girl
Have a cell phone?:: yes
Like to play sports?:: love too...
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?::not at the moment
Have a crush on someone?:: I always do.
Live somewhere NOT in the united states?:: Yes
Have more than 5 TVs in your house?:: Nopes
Have any special talents/skills?:: I guess kinda of maybe snowboarding..
Excercise daily?:: mmhmm, usually
Like school?:: i hate it

CAN YOU
Sing the alphabet backwards?:: nope
Stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes?:: yes
Speak any other languages?:: kind of, not fluently
Go a day without food?:: yea
Stay up for more than 24 hours?:: Oh heck yes
Read music, not just tabs?:: yes, if I have too...
Roll your tongue?:: yes
Eat a whole pizza?:: oh probabley :P

HAVE YOU EVER
Snuck out of the house?:: yes
Cried to get out of trouble?:: yep
Gotten lost in your city?:: nopes
Seen a shooting star?:: yes
Been to any other countries besides the united states?:: not yet...
Had a serious surgery?:: nope
Stolen something important to someone else?:: no
Solved a rubiks cube?:: ALMOST!
Gone out in public in your pajamas?:: yes
Cried over a girl?:: one of my friends...
Cried over a boy?:: too many times.
Kissed a random stranger?:: yah
Hugged a random stranger?:: mmhmm...
Been in a fist fight?:: yes and no
Been arrested?:: nopes
Done drugs?:: second hand :P
Had alcohol?:: too often
Laughed and had milk come out of your nose?:: nope
Pushed all the buttons on an elevator?:: haha yah
Gone to school only to find you had the day off because of a holiday/etc?:: yah
Swore at your parents?:: no
Been to warped tour?:: no
Kicked a guy where it hurts?:: yes & he deserved it.
Been in love?:: maybe
Been close to love?:: yes
Been to a casino?:: no
Ran over an animal and killed it?:: nope
Broken a bone?::yes
Gotten stitches?:: no
Had a waterballoon fight in winter?:: haha yah...
Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour?:: no
Made homemade muffins?:: yes
Bitten someone?:: yep
Been to disneyland/disneyworld?:: no
More than 5 times?:: see above
Been to niagra falls?:: not yet
Burped in someones face?:: nope
Gotten the chicken pox?:: yes

WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU
Brushed your teeth:: 1/2 hour ago
Saw a movie in theaters:: a week ago
Read a book:: this weekend
Had a snow day:: a couple months ago
Had a party:: last yearish
Had a slumber party:: friday...haha but it was a different type...
Made fun of someone:: yesterday
Tripped in front of someone:: all the time
Went to the grocery store:: last week?
Got sick:: lil while ago
Cursed:: about 10 mins ago

FRIENDSHIP
How many friends do you have?:: lots :)
What are their names?:: do I have too?
Do you have a best friend?:: yes
Have you ever liked one of your friends?:: yah
Do you have more guy friends or more girl friends?:: guys
Have you ever lost a friend?:: yah logan, I miss you <3 - never forgotten
Have you ever gone to an amusement park with a friend?:: many times
Whats an inside joke between you and a friend?:: haha lots
Have you ever gotten in a big arguement with a friend?:: mmhmm.
Whats the nicest thing youve ever done for a friend?:: I don't know
Whats the nicest thing a friend has ever done for you?:: ...
Do you miss any of your old friends?:: all the time
What friend have you known the longest?:: David
Do you regret anything youve done to a friend?:: yah
If so, what is it?:: I can't say it...
How often do you spend time with your friends?:: everyday
Do any of your friends drive?:: all of us
Has a friend of yours ever died?:: yes...Logan, this past april...</3 Whats the dumbest thing youve done with a friend?:: oh no, uhm...last friday...we uhm... What do you think your friends think of you?:: they think I'm crazy. LOVE AND ALL THAT CRAP Have you ever been in love?:: yea If you have, with who?:: please don't Are you single?:: yeah Are you in a relationship?:: no If so, for how long?:: --- What was your first kiss like?:: meh, like all the rest. How old were you when you got your first kiss?:: 14 Do you think love is a load of shit?:: nopes Whats the best experiance youve ever had with the opposite sex?:: going to panorama Worst:: breaking up from a relationship that was super long... If you are single, have you had any boyfriends/girlfriends before?:: yes Have you ever been dumped?:: no, honestly I haven't Have you ever dumped someone?:: yes Been asked out:: yea Asked someone out:: haha yah I.... am:: tired want:: food need:: him crave:: peanut butter... love:: someone hate:: loving someone who doesn't care did:: him. feel:: like hell miss:: the way things used to be am annoyed by:: dylan would rather:: snowboarding in whistler right now. am tired of:: not getting what I want will always:: be there for him. SILLY STUFF What time is it now?:: 5:51pm What day is it?:: monday Whens the last time you called someone?:: nora, yesterday How much money do you have right now?:: not too much... Are you hungry?:: yes Whatcha doin?:: this. Do you like parades?:: yah Do you like the moon?:: yah What are you going to do when youre done with this?:: find some food Isnt cup a funny word when you repeat it over and over?:: uhm, no. If you could have any magical power what would it be?:: to fly! Have you ever had a picnic?:: yea Did you ever have one of those skip-its when you were young?:: yes! What about sock em boppers?:: no. Are you wearing any socks right now?:: nopes WOULD YOU EVER Sky dive?::yea Play strip poker?:: yah Run away?:: I just might Curse at a teacher?:: no Not take a shower for a week?:: once, when I was 7. Ask someone out?:: yeh Lie to someone to make them think better of you?:: nopes Visit a foreign country for more than a month?:: you betcha Go scuba diving?:: uhm yeh Write a book?:: I want too... LAST QUESTIONS What shampoo do you use?:: fructis What kind of computer do you have?:: eeek, my sister made it so I dunno... What grade are you in?:: 12 Do you like to throw popcorn at people in the movies?:: no Or just make out?:: haha too public for me How many posters do you have in your room?:: tons, snowboarding ones mostly How many cds do you have?:: lots What time is it now?:: 5:54pm
3:54 pm

it's all over and done with.
Tuesday, June 20th, 2006
8:20 pm

You learned that when you grow away from your friends you always find yourself hanging on to the one time you can remember you were all happy. In high school there is never just one romance. you will always want the things or guys you cant have. People Will hurt you even if they might not mean to. Kisses are not contracts & they dont mean forever.Just because people say I love you doesnt mean that they do. Long glances are twice as good as short ones. Learning to forgive&forget is one of lifes many virtues. Laugh when you fight for dumb reasons.Always try to spend quality time with friends. Go to sleep with a clear mind...you'll sleep better. The guy who loves you the most usually doesnt have to say it because you can just feel it when hes around. Is it possible to be friends with someone you once loved? Some say yes, some say no. I think it depends on how much you loved them. if someone loves you, that doesnt mean theyll never hurt you.Nothing can make you stay&nothing can make you leave. The heart only loves what it likes&hates what it doesnt. When you think about him, is all you can do is remember your past? Or is all you can do is think about your future? Learning to forgive yourself after a mistake is always going to be hard. Telling you one thing & doing anotheriswrong. Nomatter how many times you look back, never regret what you did. A part of me will always be with you. The heart is foreverinexperienced; although it can be broken it keeps beating just the same. We love being in love & thats the truth. To love is to admire with the heart. To admire is to love with the mind. The head never rules the heart, it just becomes its partner in crime. We know things better through love than knowledge. People who do not take chances or risks limit themselves. People, who say dreams never come true, never have had one that did. Sometimes it takes a twist of fate to make a miracle. I dont know whether to love you or hate you. A friend is a friend. . a lover is a lover. . being both just becomes toocomplicated. Sometimes the best things in life really are free. Breaking up is harder to do the longer you wait. Love that we cannot have is the one that lasts the longest, hurts the deepest& feels the strongest. Noone has even loved anyone...the way everyone wants to be loved. We all want to be in love for the simple reason that it is the oneexperience that makes us feel like we trulybelong. When you fall too fast you get burned. The hardest part of learning a love lesson is the part where you have to walk away. He may be perfect but he is human. A smile can change everything, a kiss cant cure everything, & Im sorry wont work forever. A phone call has the power to make or break you. Sometimes you just gotta go. Sometimes you gotta call a past to help a future. It is possible to fall for someone...no matter how quick you fall. There is painnomatterwhat. . the pain that comes before the love or the pain that comes when its all over. I still love you, I just dont know what you are now. I love you, you change me. You love me, I change you. Therefore you & I will never fully know each other because we are always changing one another. I feel so alive cause someone like you found me & suddenly nothing is the same

Tuesday, June 13th, 2006
8:22 pm



but it's over were goners
it's out of our control
and if theres one thing that i know
it's that it's best to just let it roll
so let's just let it roll

<3<3<3

8:20 pm
cross my heart, hope to die
i swear i won't say what happened that night
so starting today things are gonna be all right

your best you tried, and yeah you did fine
no better than fine, perfect in my mind
in fact, i wish your heart was mine
and i can hear the memory in my ears
back to the years and all those tears
but hear me when i say im glad we steered that way
because now we're here
Saturday, May 13th, 2006
1:48 pm
I never wanted to love you, but that's ok
I always knew that you'd leave me anyway
But darling when I see you, I see me

I asked the boys if they'd let me go out and play
They always said that you'd hurt me anyway
But darling when I see you, I see me

Its alright I never thought I'd fall in love again
Its alright I look to you as my only friend
Its alright I never thought that I could feel this something
Rising, rising in my veins
Looks like it's happened again

I never thought that you wanted for me to stay
So I left you with the girls that came your way
But darling when I see you, I see me

I often thought that you'd be better off left alone
Why throw a circle round a man with broken bones
But darling when I see you, I see me

Its alright I never thought I'd fall in love again
Its alright I look to you as my only friend
Its alright I never thought that I could feel this something
Rising, rising in my veins
Looks like it's happened again

You always looked like you had something else on your mind
But when I try to tell you, you'd tell me nevermind
But darling when I see you, you see me

I wanna tell you that I'll never love anyone else
You wanna tell me that you're better off by yourself
But darling when I see you, you see me


This is not what I'm like
This is not what I do
This is not what I'm like
I think I'm falling for you

I never thought - This is not what I'm like
I never thought - This is not what I do
I never thought - This is not what I'm like
I never thought - I think I'm falling for you
I never thought
I never thought
That I could feel this something
Rising, rising in my veins
Looks like it's happened again

And it looks like
I feel this something
Rising, rising in my veins
Looks like it's happened again
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